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by Renee Spahr
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"Dismissed,"
said F'digan, and the abrupt scrape of his chair against the
floor indicated the Wingleader's normal eagerness to escape
the Wing meeting and get on with more important things.
T'kamen didn't look up from the slate upon which he had been
sketching F'digan's chosen formation for the afternoon's drill.
It was a nonsense, as usual. The brown riding Wingleader always
insisted on flying point, although Benreth was small for his
colour, and in taking the lead position in every formation
he tended to disrupt the pace of all the dragons behind. Faranth
forbid he put the one bronze pair in his Wing in a position
that even suggested leadership. Even putting L'stev and Vanzanth
on point would be an improvement: the tough old brown was
not far off the size of a smaller bronze. But F'digan, like
most of Madellon's Wingleaders, cared less for practical fighting
formations than for what was most flattering to his own ego.
Wing drill was so infrequent under L'dro that it was a wonder
the Weyr had Wingleaders at all. The rank was little more
than ornamentation in a Thread-free Interval.
Absorbed in his criticism of F'digan's formation, a meaningful
cough from T'kamen's left was necessary to make the bronze
rider look up.
Seven of the eight remaining members of the Wing were on
their feet, standing to attention behind their chairs. L'stev
remained sprawling in his seat, wearing an expression halfway
between grin and grimace. E'vahal who, nearing his seventieth
Turn, counted as the eldest, was almost impassive, but there
was a gleam of approval in his eye. The youngest, T'sten,
looked even more boyish than his twenty Turns, but he held
himself proudly, and he was the one who spoke. "T'kamen,
sir. Permission to withdraw?"
T'kamen eyed the other wingriders warily. He wasn't comfortable
with the show of deference, but at least it was sincere. His
old Wing had been broken up and reassigned, and with the exception
of L'stev, these riders had never known him as a leader, but
F'digan wasn't popular with his wingriders.
It wasn't his place to give the command, but then each rider
knew that, too. "Granted," he muttered, half amused.
One by one the seven riders saluted him and departed, T'sten
throwing him a grin over his shoulder as he went.
"Don't look at me," L'stev growled, before T'kamen
could say a word.
The bronze rider leaned back in his chair. "Was that
approval, disapproval, or just disbelief I saw in your expression
then?"
The former Weyrlingmaster shrugged. "It was T'sten's
idea, and he's always had that contagious enthusiasm. Not
that Gerah or E'vahal would have played games with a weyrling
if they didn't agree with the sentiment."
T'kamen looked down at the notations he had made on his slate,
his eyes idly tracing the asymmetrical formation. "It's
a little premature."
"Acting as if you were already Wing and Weyrleader?
Yes. Throwing their support behind you?" L'stev shook
his head. "They've flown with you for three Turns. They
know what kind of man and rider you are better than most.
Accept the compliment, T'kamen, and their confidence."
The brown rider considered for a moment. "Though if word
gets out, it's bound to shorten the odds on you again. By
the shards of Vanzanth's shell, I'm glad I don't have a class
to keep in hand at the moment. I don't know how I could stop
them from betting every mark they have on this."
T'kamen was unmoved by the talk of gambling, and completely
uninterested in the current odds for and against him. C'los
kept track, insisting that it was a good gauge of the Weyr's
support, but T'kamen had been somewhat distracted from the
campaign for the last few days.
Since Epherineth had nudged him into talking to Sarenya,
T'kamen had felt a great weight ease from his shoulders, a
burden so familiar he had not even recognised it until it
had lifted. For the first time, he could think back on that
memorable month seven Turns ago without bitterness. Things
were not the same: the impulsive, spontaneous passion that
had sparked so readily between himself and Sarenya would not
easily be rekindled. But the old poison was gone, and something
had eased between T'kamen and C'mine, too. The blue rider's
delight at seeing their reconciliation, albeit partial, was
tangible. C'mine was far too subtle to start throwing them
together in the hope of provoking something more, but T'kamen
was no longer reluctant to visit his friends' weyr because
of the possibility that Sarenya might be there. The issue
of the Weyrleadership seemed somehow very distant and abstract
to T'kamen's newfound lightness of spirit. It was easier to
ignore the bilious remarks of L'dro's ranking cronies, F'digan's
heavy-handed approach to leading the Wing; even the food didn't
seem quite as bad as before.
"You remember C'los wants us all there for a progress
meeting after lunch?" L'stev asked.
T'kamen nodded. "More diagrams, I imagine."
"It keeps him happy, and he knows what he's doing,"
said L'stev. "C'los has his faults, all right, but he's
one of the sharpest weyrlings I ever did train."
T'kamen picked up his slate. "He always was."
The two riders left the Wing ready room together. The contrast
between the coolness of the cavern and the blazing temperature
outside was marked, and T'kamen squinted against the sun.
The wild cry of a green dragon in heat made the bronze rider
pity the flight participants: it really wasn't the weather
for such exertions. He watched as the green hurled herself
aloft, several males after her, and automatically his gaze
moved to Shimpath's ledge.
The queen's colour was vibrant in the sun, but there was
none of the glowing luminescence about her hide that the green
had shown. T'kamen doubted that he would see any visible sign
of Shimpath's readiness to mate before Epherineth sensed it,
anyway. In that respect he deferred completely to his dragon's
judgement.
L'stev came up beside him, following his gaze. "She's
a good-looking young queen," he remarked. "If Vanzanth
was any younger - and if she wasn't senior
."
"You have the choice, at least," said T'kamen.
The brown rider snorted. "That's as may be, Kamen, but
not a chance, even if he had the impulse. There's no brown
here who could compete with even the weakest bronze."
T'kamen watched Shimpath critically. Young and strong, yes,
but without the sleek strong lines of a fighting dragon. Even
in an Interval, a queen flew less than any other dragon. "If
she wasn't senior
Epherineth would still chase. He
doesn't have the option."
"Price of a bronze, Kamen," L'stev said succinctly.
"I taught you that Turns ago."
"He's always chased," T'kamen said slowly. "Cherganth,
twice. He'd barely reached his full size the first time. She
was too experienced for him; the older bronzes knew her ways."
"I remember the first green Vanzanth ever took it into
his head to chase," said L'stev. "Thirty Turns older
than him. He choked on her dust."
T'kamen smiled slightly. "Young queen, young bronze.
Epherineth has a better chance at Shimpath now than he's ever
had against a queen. But
" He stopped.
"She may not be what you want, T'kamen, but she's all
we've got," L'stev told him. "And like it or not,
you're the best chance we all have to turn this sorry Weyr
around."
"As if I could forget," T'kamen replied ironically.
"Does it bother you?" the brown rider asked.
T'kamen considered the question. "Only in the sense
that I don't like having my every move watched and analysed."
"But you don't feel under pressure?"
The bronze rider shook his head. "I understand the necessity
of popular support. But the only obligation I feel is to myself,
my dragon and my friends."
"And to beat L'dro?"
T'kamen shrugged. "He's a bad Weyrleader, and he's made
himself my enemy. But he was always the one who had something
to prove as a weyrling, not me."
"I remember thinking that might be the case before he
even Impressed," said L'stev. "He was his father's
only son, and he always was little too conscious of the fact
that L'mis was sometimes Weyrleader - when Fianine chose.
A green or blue might have been the making of him, but Pierdeth
just confirmed the opinion Leddrome had of himself."
The brown rider chuckled. "Then you Impressed Epherineth:
you, with your Trader background and your ignorance of the
Weyr, and your friends Impressing blue and green, and showed
the little tail-fork that there's more to being a proper dragonrider
than being the Weyrleader's son and riding a bronze."
"Sometimes there's less to riding a bronze than being
a proper dragonrider," said T'kamen.
"Too often, when a Weyrleader like L'dro is setting
the example," L'stev agreed. "We've been lucky with
young T'rello. I thought the lack of another bronze in his
class would go to his head, but that, and his youth, seems
to have made him less competitive. And petty competition between
weyrling bronze riders has been the bane of my time as Weyrlingmaster,
T'kamen." The brown rider scowled at him. "Watch
how Epherineth mates Shimpath, you hear? I don't want any
more than one bronze in a clutch. They'll send me between
before my time."
T'kamen smiled briefly as the gruff old brown rider walked
off towards his waiting dragon.
"I'll see what I can do," he murmured, to himself.
The
new gown was beautiful. It had arrived less than an hour ago,
brought to Valonna's weyr by one of the blue riders from Shimpath's
first clutch, and the Weyrwoman had signed and sealed Tailorcraft
papers to confirm its safe delivery. The young rider had hastened
back to his dragon with the receipt, visibly anxious to discharge
his duty.
It hung in Valonna's weyr now, resplendent in gilt-coloured
satin, trimmed with delicate lace, hung with sparkling glass
beads: exquisite in every way.
Except that it was too big on her hips, too small on her
waist, too low fronted for propriety, and matched neither
the slippers nor the jewellery L'dro had given her to wear
at Turn's End.
Valonna gazed at the gorgeous, useless dress, and despaired.
The last month had left her as dazed as she had been in the
early days of her time as Weyrwoman. T'kamen's open challenge
in the dining hall had made her painfully aware that, much
as she had hated it the first time, she was once again going
to be the centre of attention until Shimpath rose again. And
while Valonna was eager for things to go back to normal, she
anticipated her dragon's mating flight with trepidation.
L'dro had been attentive and solicitous to her needs since
the other bronze rider had made his challenge. Valonna wasn't
a complete fool. She recognised L'dro's transparent efforts
to curry her favour for what they were. But that didn't stop
her feeling pathetically grateful for his kindness.
Things were the way they were meant to be again: the way they
had been for the first three Turns of Shimpath's life. L'dro
treated her with a courtesy and generosity that went beyond
gowns and trinkets. He had escorted her to half a dozen major
Gathers, north and south, insisting on only the very best
for her, speaking glowingly of her skills as Weyrwoman to
the other Weyrleaders and Lords they encountered. Once, a
man had pushed carelessly past her, jostling her into the
dust at the side of the thoroughfare through the Gather stalls.
L'dro had pursued the offender, bringing him back to offer
an abject apology to the Weyrwoman. Then L'dro had purchased
Valonna another new gown to make up for the dusty condition
of the one she had been wearing.
Valonna knew he was going out of his way to please her for
the sake of the Weyrleadership: she knew it, but she
couldn't bring herself to believe that there was nothing more
to it. L'dro had become complacent, yes, but perhaps after
Pierdeth won Shimpath's second flight, the bronze rider would
be grateful, and reward Valonna with his fidelity as Shimpath
had rewarded Pierdeth. Perhaps the threat posed by the other
bronze riders of the Weyr would finally make L'dro settle
to her.
Perhaps.
But what was the alternative? A bronze rider Valonna didn't
know, didn't understand - didn't love. A bronze rider L'dro
loathed, despised, for reasons Valonna had never dared to
ask, but that must be valid to inspire such depth of hatred
in the Weyrleader: T'kamen: a rider Valonna rarely saw, and
barely knew but by reputation. Valonna dreaded L'dro's bad
moods, but at least she had grown accustomed to them. The
prospect of being forced to learn how to handle the black
tempers of a strange man frightened her.
Still, the prospect of having to tell L'dro that the priceless
gown he had commissioned for her was all wrong scared Valonna,
too.
Pierdeth's rider made the mistake, not you, Shimpath
said from outside. You should be angry with him.
It wasn't his fault, Valonna protested. He wanted
to surprise me with it: he couldn't arrange a fitting.
To surprise you with a gown that you cannot wear is not
thoughtful, Valonna, said the queen, in a rare tone of
reproach. If he's angry with you because he got it wrong
he is even less thoughtful.
He's trying, Shimpath, the Weyrwoman insisted. He's
trying so hard, and I don't want to upset him.
The young queen rumbled disapprovingly. Why don't you
go and see Darshanth's rider? she suggested. He always
makes you feel better.
I can't, it's his anniversary.
Shimpath was silent for a moment, and then she said, Darshanth
says C'mine says you're always welcome.
Valonna was more surprised by her dragon's naming of the
blue rider than the fact that she had spoken to Darshanth
unasked. You never say names, Shimpath.
I like C'mine, the queen replied offhandedly. He's
kind to you.
Did you bully Darshanth? Valonna asked suspiciously.
Shimpath was indignant. I wouldn't bully him.
Valonna sighed and shook her head. Maybe later.
The young Weyrwoman gazed at the lovely gown L'dro had given
her. It was so beautiful. Maybe she could wear it anyway
But it wouldn't be right on her - too big in some places,
too small in others, wrong, overall. If she wore it, she knew
she would always be grateful to L'dro for the stunning, if
imperfect, gift. If she didn't, L'dro would be angry - he
might even be unfaithful again, and Valonna couldn't bear
that - but at least she wouldn't feel so indebted to him.
Valonna reached out to touch the gown. Against the shimmering
fabric, her hand looked pale and sickly, a washed-out reflection
of its golden magnificence. It was too rich a hue for her.
She would never be able to wear this gown as if it had been
made with her in mind.
Gold, she realised with a sick, sinking feeling, never had
been her colour.

T'kamen finished oiling the steel buckles of Epherineth's
fighting harness and set the work aside, wiping his hands
on the rag dangling from his belt. As an afterthought, the
bronze rider pulled the cloth free, folded it, and tossed
it back into his leather-working kit.
As he headed into the cool dimness of his sleeping chamber
to find a clean shirt, T'kamen felt his stomach growl, and
he realised how long it had been since the previous night's
dinner.
I told you to eat, Epherineth said reasonably.
T'kamen pulled off his grease- and sweat-smeared tunic and
found a fresh shirt, pulling it on and rolling up the sleeves
but leaving it open. It was too hot to stifle in heavy clothes.
Los and Mine will have something.
Abruptly, Epherineth's amusement changed to indignation,
and T'kamen heard his dragon demand, What do you want?
What is it? he asked, straightening the collar of
his new shirt as he strode out onto the weyr ledge to investigate
the cause of the disturbance.
Another bronze was perching awkwardly to let his rider dismount.
There was no room for two dragons on Epherineth's ledge at
the best of times, and T'kamen's dragon had come to angry
attention at the invasion, huge and bristling, the facets
of his eyes edged with red. T'kamen put a calming hand on
Epherineth's shoulder, distractedly noting the reversal of
their normal roles, and stared up at their unwanted guest.
The smaller, darker bronze was Alonth, and his rider, H'ersto,
was ranked Flightleader, a senior member of the bronze rider
Council.
T'kamen watched grimly as the older rider made an graceless
dismount, neither offering assistance nor asking Epherineth
to move aside. "What do you want?" he demanded,
unconsciously echoing his bronze as the Flightleader sent
Alonth away.
H'ersto was a small man, with a build that had once been
stocky and was now becoming stout, and the weakness in his
face that all the senior bronze riders who had served under
Fianine as Weyrwoman seemed to share. "A moment, T'kamen,
just a moment, to catch my breath
"
T'kamen folded his arms. "What is it?"
"Could we at least go inside?" the Flightleader
panted.
T'kamen was perspiring in the full sun, too, but he had no
intention of offering this man any hospitality. "What
do you want?" he asked again.
H'ersto glanced furtively around, as if anyone might be listening
so high up in the Bowl. "I really shouldn't be here,
risking myself. But, T'kamen, you're the rising star in the
Weyr, and I have a proposal for you."
T'kamen started to turn away. "I'm not interested."
The sweating little Flightleader held up his hands. "Just
hear me out, T'kamen. For the sake of the friendship we had
when you rode in my Flight
"
"That friendship ended the day you gave my Wing to a
brown rider," T'kamen said coldly.
"I know, T'kamen, it was a terrible thing to happen
to a good working relationship, but I had to heed the Weyrleader's
wishes. You're a reasonable man: you surely see the position
I was in!"
"I see you very clearly, Flightleader," said T'kamen,
disgusted.
"But L'dro's time is ending," the little man pressed
on. "Anyone can see that, with the popularity you have.
Madellon wants a new Weyrleader. You. But just one
thing stands in your way."
"I don't think I need to hear any more of this,"
T'kamen said, trying to turn aside again.
"Hear me out, T'kamen!" H'ersto urged him. "All
the blue and green riders of Pern could support you as Madellon's
next Weyrleader, but when all's said and done, they can't
help you where it really matters."
"And you can?" T'kamen asked, with heavy sarcasm.
"When the queen rises, bronzes chase," H'ersto
told him, as if he was imparting some great secret. "And
that's where Alonth and I can help you. Oh, Alonth
could never catch Shimpath. But if he got in Pierdeth's way
"
T'kamen couldn't form a reply for several moments, shocked.
"You'd interfere in a mating flight?"
"In the heat of mating, who could say what's interference
and what's sheer chance?" H'ersto's expression became
crafty. "And it's no more unfair than trying to alter
the outcome in advance by building popular support. Think
about it, T'kamen. With Pierdeth out of the running, Epherineth
would have no competition."
T'kamen felt sick. To influence opinions in the Weyr was
one thing: to deliberately plan to obstruct a dragon in the
flight itself was another. It defiled every law of respect
for dragonkind. That H'ersto would consider such a thing,
whether or not it was even possible, was repellent. "And
what would you get out of this?"
"Me?" H'ersto's eyes went wide with feigned innocence.
"Why, nothing but the guarantee of a strong Weyrleader.
A Weyrleader who, I'm sure, would be wise enough to know what
to change and what to leave be."
"You mean like the favours that let Council bronze riders
get fat while everyone else suffers?"
"Don't make your decision yet, T'kamen," the Flightleader
said, ignoring T'kamen's fury. "Think it over - discuss
it with your friends. You'll see the sense of it."
H'ersto's brightly condescending tone made T'kamen see red,
but then Epherineth's touch on his mind cooled him. The bronze
rider took a firm hold of himself as he listened to his dragon's
calm suggestion.
"Well?" H'ersto asked.
T'kamen took a deep breath. "What do you think, Epherineth?"
H'ersto's expression registered disbelief at first, as Epherineth
lowered his great head to stare at him. But T'kamen guessed
that seeing oneself reflected back a hundred times in the
crimson-laced eyes of an angry bronze dragon was enough to
frighten even another dragonrider, and that getting a good
view of that dragon's teeth was similarly distressing. Slowly
and very deliberately, he said, "Get off our ledge, Flightleader,
before I throw you off."
The bugle of alarm that could only have come from Alonth
sounded thin and shrill compared to the deepest and softest
of menacing growls that rumbled from Epherineth's throat.
T'kamen placed his hand meaningfully on his dragon's jaw,
close to those gleaming teeth, as Alonth descended from the
Rim to collect his shaken and intimidated rider. Sweating
more profusely than ever, H'ersto scrambled aboard his bronze,
and only then summoned the courage for a retort. "You'll
never beat Pierdeth without me, bronze rider!"
"Watch us."
He stood vigil with his bronze until Alonth had gone, dropping
to the low-level weyr that belonged to H'ersto, and Epherineth
had relaxed. Then T'kamen leaned more heavily against his
dragon: half incredulous that the incident had occurred, half
weak with revulsion at the bargain his former Flightleader
had tried to strike. The sun beat down as harshly as ever,
but the bronze rider felt chilled to the bone.
Finally, Epherineth spoke. The suggestion that I would
need the help of one such as Alonth to win my queen!
T'kamen smiled at his dragon's offended outrage. I know,
my friend. You never could handle insults.
Insults. Absurdities. The bronze shook himself all
over, and flexed his talons into the stone of the ledge.
Indioth says you're late, he added, more peaceably.
T'kamen straightened up decisively. Tell her we're coming.
C'los will want to hear about this.
Sarenya
smoothed down the seam she was mending on one of her heavy
wherhide tunics, then continued to sew, running the thread
through the fine holes already punched in the leather. The
stitching seemed to unravel the moment she turned her back
on it: the garment had been weathered and cracked by wind,
rain, dirt, and was probably due for complete replacement,
but the journeyman was loath to spend her marks on a new one.
So she sat quietly, making repairs and listening while the
riders discussed the latest twist in their plans to influence
the Weyrleadership.
"It was inevitable that someone would get scared and
come running to you sooner or later, Kamen," C'los was
saying.
"And it doesn't surprise me that it was H'ersto,"
said R'hren. "Treacherous little tail-fork. He always
did like to keep a foot in each camp."
"Then why did you keep him on as Flightleader when you
were Weyrleader?" asked T'kamen.
R'hren sighed heavily. "You have to remember, T'kamen,
that on the occasions when I was Weyrleader, the main thing
on my mind was staying Weyrleader." The old rider
grimaced. "I never did, but that didn't stop me trying.
H'ersto wasn't a threat. Even if he'd had the ambition to
lead the Weyr, Alonth never had the class to take on a queen.
So it seemed wiser to leave H'ersto in a ranking position
than to replace him with a bronze rider who was a bigger danger."
"Flightleader's an even more decorative title than Wingleader,"
L'stev muttered.
R'hren nodded reluctantly. "It means very little these
days."
"Take it as an encouraging sign, Kamen," C'los
advised the bronze rider. "If H'ersto was willing to
defect, others must be thinking about it."
"I was more concerned about how far some Council riders
would be willing to go to affect Shimpath's flight,"
said T'kamen.
"He has a point," commented V'rai. "L'dro
would rig it against Epherineth if he thought he could."
"But could he?" asked T'rello. "I mean, I
don't know from my own experience, but could Alonth
have interfered with Pierdeth once they were all airborne?"
"Mid-air tussles do happen," said R'hren. "Bronzes
will lash out if another gets too close, or if they're obstructed.
But could H'ersto could actually make Alonth do that deliberately?"
He shook his head. "I don't know. Queen flights are very
intense. Neither bronze nor rider is thinking about anything
besides winning."
"You said that Alonth isn't good enough to have a serious
shot at a queen," said Jenavally. "If H'ersto knew
he didn't have a chance himself, could he hold back from the
need to win, and settle for influencing the outcome instead?"
"I suppose so," R'hren said doubtfully. "A
rider could make his beast more reckless, more likely to collide
with another."
"In that case, Epherineth could face half a dozen bronzes
with the intention of blocking him," said C'los. "D'feng
and Sejanth don't have a serious chance, and D'feng doesn't
want to be Weyrleader himself."
"It would be very easy to make it seem accidental with
twenty dragons in the air," L'stev added. "No one
remembers what happens in a flight, anyway."
"And Pierdeth doesn't need long to win Shimpath,"
said Jenavally. "The other bronzes would only need to
delay Epherineth long enough for Pierdeth to catch her up."
The discussion made Sarenya frown as she bit off a thread
and pulled experimentally at the seam she had just sewn. "I
thought mating flights were more straightforward than this,"
she commented quietly to C'mine.
"They are, for the dragons. It's people who make them
complicated," the blue rider replied softly. He smiled.
"Do your fire-lizards chase much?"
"The blue probably does, but he leads quite a separate
life from me," said Sarenya. "Tarnish caught queens
at Blue Shale once or twice. I haven't seen any here, though."
"There aren't many at Madellon," C'mine told her.
"Too far inland, and most riders have enough to keep
them busy."
"Evidently," Sarenya said dryly, indicating the
debate with a flick of her eyes.
"We need a new Weyrleader," said C'mine. "Can
you think of anyone better than Kamen?"
Sarenya looked at the bronze rider. Beside him, C'los was
talking rapidly, with characteristically exaggerated gestures,
but no one could have mistaken him for the real force in the
room. T'kamen was still and focused, listening, his eyes intent,
his demeanour one of contained readiness: he almost seemed
to radiate leadership. He would probably never be a beloved
leader, but he would always command respect, and lead well
and wisely. Sarenya had known T'kamen seven Turns ago, and
she knew him still: this was a man who had been born to make
decisions.
But the longer she listened to the discussion, the more aware
she became of her exclusion from it. It wasn't that the dragonriders
were deliberately ignoring her - she simply had nothing to
contribute. C'mine had sought her out and specifically invited
her to come to the meeting, and Sarenya was grateful to the
blue rider for thinking of her, but her presence was completely
superfluous to the business at hand.
The only other non-rider present was Chuvone, and even he
had once ridden a blue. Sarenya didn't know the full story
of how the man had lost his dragon, but there was something
unsettling about him.
"C'mine?"
The blue rider looked at her inquiringly.
"What happened to Chuvone's dragon?"
C'mine glanced at the dragonless man, and a deep sadness
touched his eyes. "His dragon misjudged a turn in training
manoeuvres and hit the wall of the Bowl. Ch'vone got away
with some minor injuries, but Gommeshath died on the ground."
"Why did it happen?"
The blue rider shook his head. "He was the youngest
weyrling
T'kamen thinks it was his own fault. Gommeshath
was the most agile of the blues in our class, and maybe Ch'vone
needed to prove he was as good as any of the older riders.
Or maybe L'dro was taunting him; I don't know. What I do know
is that he didn't deserve to lose his dragon. No one deserves
that."
Sarenya considered for a moment. "Do you think he would
rather not have Impressed?"
C'mine's expression turned briefly distant, as if he was
talking to his own dragon to reassure himself. "I can't
say, Saren," he said finally. "Not even for myself.
To lose Darshanth
" He shook his head. "I don't
even want to think about it. But to never have known him at
all
I don't know. I suppose it would be like choosing
between being blind from birth, or losing your sight during
adulthood. Is it better to lose what you once had, or to never
have it in the first place?"
"I think it would be better to have gone blind later,"
Sarenya said slowly. "At least then you could imagine
what everyone else is seeing."
The blue rider looked at her with such understanding and
sympathy in his eyes that for a moment Sarenya was confused.
What had she said
? But then she knew, and the fact that
C'mine had perceived it first spoke of the blue rider's sensitivity.
He knew how hard it was for her to be among dragonriders;
almost, perhaps, as hard as it must be for Chuvone. Chuvone,
at least, had seen the rainbows that Sarenya never would.
"I know I'd rather lose my sight than my dragon,"
C'mine said finally. "Not that I'd like to go blind."
Then the blue rider smiled, and nodded towards his weyrmate.
C'los was wearing a garish purple and black shirt. "Not
unless he makes a habit of wearing that thing, anyway, and
then it might just be out of my hands
"
  
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